The Quagmire Of An Almighty

Things were out of reach, shelves and kitchen counter tops

Everything seemed taller, and my daily life was a shock

I knew I wanted to be a touch stronger than I then was

I decided to be bigger, I wanted to become a God

You see, when everything and every one hurts, we pray

Yet all our prayers and yell for divine intervention is in dismay

I knew there would be times in life of hurt, and it would be hard

I decided to be bigger, I wanted to become a God

When the time arrived to feel my heart break, it rained

Of rejection from me and my love, then me and the world

When everything was lost, when I broke down and I was distraught

I decided to be bigger, I wanted to become a God

The thirties flew by, everything went to dust, yet I persevered

Life was ugly, a struggle to breathe most times but I was smart

I had found my weakness, it was the fallacy of my loving heart

I breathed away my feelings, I had become a God

One could question what drives a man, I would tell you

It is the constant hurt and rebuilding, for only hope can spring life anew

I remembered I was beyond such mere perils of mortal men

I would see these sufferings and win, for I was this God

Now at this pedestal that I had been placed, by me and all

I would find ease in all that could make souls writhe and crawl

But I saw my life was lost in believing I was infallible

I had become everything unworthy, in being a false God