If
Only
And if
Maybe so
But, then
Maybe not
Maybe
And all I see
Is an empty table
Not me
Not you
For my mind
Dwells in yours
And your mind
Drifts away
Yet your lips lie
Maybe
Maybe not
And here my blood
Mixes with alcohol
Tries to erase my thoughts
Fails for I forget
My mind is lost in yours


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July 4 2014

The rain drops on my window panes
Have long dried up
And the sky is a clear blue
Inviting to flight
I still wish for the rain

The rain seems to bring
Nothing , but an gnawing absence
Of your voice and eyes
And in it's stillness haunts
Mocks my soul

Why is the blue so irrelevant to the grey
Or the bright morning such a passé
And why does the derelict mind seek
A corner, away from the light
Maybe the light is in your imagery
Maybe, i am lost into that darkness.

Would the light of my eyes show
I so want to, yet is otherwise
I hold to what i perceive
Yet the perception is a faux
This faux heals me, bleeds me till i am hollow
It kills me, yet makes me believe it doesn't
Hands reach out
Hands retreat
As if it is a mist
Disappearing at the first light
Like a cowering fool's dream
And i wish for an escape
Yet i hold my ball and chain dear
It's a fallacy
I am so used to
My tears, cease to run
They never would ,for i have frozen them
I want to let them flow
Yet i fear the flame of wanting

Only if you were real
Like your thoughts seem to be
And all that could
Seem to have evaded my memories
Barring you
And your youthful touch

Hold me in your arms
Let the dew dry
And the flowers wilt
The trees , let them die

I long for your kiss

But is that such a wandering!
Must be , maybe not as much
In and amongst the fog
the brook and the howling valleys

I remember
Like yesterday
Like a vagabond, have I searched
And when i found
I found
What i found, was not as you
As you were

Yet your strawberry lips
Call me,
Remind me of the sweetness of your kiss
Of your caress
And your eye lashes on mine

Stillness
Dark, yet bright like a thousand suns
When it shall be compared to my heart
Would you be here?
Hidden
Amongst the infinite

All along the sandy shore
Where you and the waves lash
Or not, in the crimson dome

I miss the sweet taste of your skin
Like a million sparkles of tangerine
And those eyes
Calling me
Alluring me, to breach my advocacy

Of right and wrong that you compell me to evade
Only to mock
Yet i follow
Persist
In thoughts of you
Some pure some pure lust
Of longing and lone

What shall you choose
My heart or my soul
The heart you froze
The soul you made me sell
To the devil for a glimpse of you

I am Consumed
In your wanton lust and longing
Ridiculed by my own
One and all, yet i stray to you

Only , to know
Blue is another
So is red
Yellow and orange are persistent
And await to die

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July 18/2014

Where shall
Would be despair
Who shall
Would be desperation
Who would
Shall be hope
Yet these are terms
Of irrelevance
Could I
A lack of confidence
Can i
A lack of trust
Would i
A disbelief
Dissociated are these for me
One must
Is compliance
One may
Is compromise
One could
Is adaptability
Such are for mortals
The meek and those surrounding
I won't
Is me
I don't
Is me
I
Is me
For all else
Exist,
For me, be me

Let my veil hide my bleed
For the heart wants to fly
Kiss the sun; first ray
Yet my wings bear no wind

For a pair of wings
A gust of wind
As cobblestones
To a beautiful path

I wish to soar
Yet the depth of the sky like an abyss taunts
I fight
Yet i immolate

Now the burn
Has kept me warm
It may be cinders
Yet , warm

I seek no wind now
Yet i hope for
Like a princess
Chained to a tower

I feel grounded
I am
Yet my mind as an avian
Soars those misty blue hues

In descent
From my sanity
What shall i first cross
The barricade of the truth
Convenient ones or faux pas
If to know
One from the other is unknown
Or should it be woe
Endless, and persistent
Tearing at the fabric of the mortals
I oft cast aside
Should i break
Or should i break my fall
On the illogical life
That most seem to live
As them to groan and whimper
Whine of how life left them behind
Shall it be my fall
Or a landing
Shall the ground exist
Shall it be slime
I fear not of those
As the imminent fall
Is the one of longing
That envelopes the rest

If to taste
The nectar of passion
One should
But not with a forfeit
Of sense and sensuality

And if to touch your hair
Should i reach
Touch my mind you must
For the wanderings of lust
Of wanton longing
Brings no feel

For without feel
Shall my skin awaken
Shall i feel the spin
Of a million galaxies
In the sheet
Of an inane

I for one shall pass
For such is my lust
For i seek the twinkle of joy
In the eyes
Of one , who shall understand such

Is that me
Or is that the one to
Or is that nothing yet so much
For in such existence
I fall into oblivion
Only to rise
And fall again
The black below
The blue above
Only seem to further themselves
Only if i could taste
For once the fires of passion
The altar of such
I have passed by
so many, so many more
Yet
I feel the icicles
Of desire
Like A million pins
On my palms
Yet no bleed

Is the stillness of the night
As cold, or is it my soul
In the unmoving vast
Of rain, and fog
Of future and past
If to hold
And to be not
Would it be left
To the mire of a thought

But if to chance
Shall all be let
Left to all , as to come
Would it
Would it be unfair

In such questions
Sears the flame ins

In the dim lit corner
Your eyes twinkle
Into mine
Your hair like a veil shadows my restraint

To feel the warmth of one as such
such a chance encounter
A mind cold, unknown of passion, mine
In flames of melting silver

It i stop to converse with words
Let my touch take over
Would those eyes still look into mine
Or shall they look away

As breath of a million words falls on you
Shall you breathe so to me
And in such an air of passion
Shall you yearn to breathe over n again

Attention,
She demands , the class listens
I ponder
Into illicit fantasies

She looks at me
A Stare, from between her glasses
It invokes lust
Yet i restrain

My skin flushed
My pulse flames
Yet my face blank
Decorum, my mind chants

I could blink
And the eyes would sashay
Into a frenzy
Of her, biting her skin

I could see her heels
As she sets foot on my chair
Commanding
As if Ordering my submission

The head spins
I see it like a kaleidoscope
Each reflecting itself
I lust, and burn, pale faced

All i see
Her, all of
Yet all they see
Is none

I am stilled
In my bolted down craving
I wish to explode
Into stardust

If to know
What life shall bring
Let me brace the waves
Hold my own stern and bow
Let the wind in my sails
And sail

In storms, let me commandeer
Refine me in the swell
In its tidal symphony
Let my heart, spin
Bite fire, embrace,
Fear and conquer it

If to be adrift
I shall float
Into winds
To arouse my senses
Feel the jolt of shock
In the lightning storms

And at the end
When i dock
Close my eyes forever, Let me be,
look into the sea
I am still there
Fighting, raising my sail
To, float into your arms

Let me push you off the ledge
Watch you fall
Into wicked passion
Of lust and craving

Let your eyes famish
Reek of passion
As i hold you
Melting in my grip

For to content
Is not my reach
It is to fan your burning lust
Only then, only to feel you want

You may know passion
In ways other than me
I touch, seek your mind
For the flesh has age, the mind ; forever young

It is red and white
Polka, on the forehead
She is shy
In the arms of a stranger
As his touch makes her shiver
It disarms, yet pleasantly
Only , she too waits
To be
Mixed in sweat
Such so
So much so
And hold him to her
If, as if there is a frozen moment
In unison
Passion, veiled in shy
Yet hunger
In her eyes
His too,
When the look into
And when one closes
Gently
As the moon wanes
Into the dawn
In surrender

If to hold you
In that room tonight
Only to gaze into your soul
Through your eyes
of a surrender
One of the soul
Yet not of flesh
I shall accept
Yet in the fire of such passion
If you may
Wish to be mine
I shall inflame

If to be
Or to say
Is all that the mind was
Would you know
If the eye of the storm was
Was a storm
would it be so
Would it swirl
If the frost was warm
And the hermit knew lust
Would his crucifix be frosted
To the hearth of his belief
Such is not my design
I make to feel
Feel is your choice
I exist, to be known

Between the mounds
Let me plough
As i hear the heart beat
Let me see your eyes , gentle , shy

As i plough the valley
Let the wedge bury itself in you
As the sweat of my brow falls
Let it be on your belly

As a farmer and my farm
I shall plough
Only to till the ground
And mix it with my sweat

When i grow tired
Let me rest in your gentle arms
As the stars rise
Let me be in your embrace

When i am spent
Awaken me again
And remind me
To plough and again

Hold me, to your heart
For i feel restless
A bird , one that never built a nest
For a nest was to me , a prison
I belonged, for so i believed
To the skies
I soared high like the clouds
Only to know otherwise
Each has a place
Each it's destiny
One cannot be
What one hopes, but just be
And i so wish
To be in your arms
Dearest blue sky
I feel no wind, for my wings are broken
Yet my desire looms
And my soul reeks of hope
If i shall fall ,
Let me fall into you

When you feel your soul wander
When the thirst of your craving rises
You will find me, Watching you
looking deep into the light of your existence

You shall not need to ask
You shall not want
I shall know
But i shall not yield

When your soul burns
I shall smile
Feed on your wanton craving
Only to watch you engulfed in flames of your deepest desire

Then i shall reach my hand
Hold yours, whisper my love to you
As you close your eyes
You shall find me, as you

If you should find me pass you by
Know, I have much to do
Than love or miss, or feel thereof
I have a million miles to travel
They are not for you
They are for others that I am a utility for
They are what make me ;me
The life of a few reasons
If you should feel sad
Feel so,
If you walk away
Do
I do not exist to please me
I am alive otherwise

I could be anything
I chose to be with you
I could be anywhere
I chose to walk with you
I walked along , for you walked
I never asked for your care
Nor your love
Neither bound you to me
I wanted you to be free
I was all i was, as I have been
Yet you wanted me to be more
If that is love, remember i never asked for it
If you walk away now, go on
I will be where I am
As I am.
I do not cry, for I never could
I cannot own, for I despise being owned
I am free, of longing, love and desire
I fly to where I please
I live to be me, not what you want me to be
The choice is your's
It always was

To swim, one must learn
To learn, one must want
To want, one must desire
To desire, one must feel
To feel, one must know
To know, one must understand
To understand, one must live
To live, one must swim
Repeat

When the light fades
And paints the earth black
I stand apart
Lost in thoughts of you
Darker than black
In the darkest of loneliness
I can hear the soul cry
Yet you may never

If you would
Know one thing
It is such , mine to bear
In the endless pain
Of knowing I should not
Of knowing i am supposedly dead
Yet i live

Those thoughts of you
Force the living as breath
The pain of longing as blood rushes in my veins
And the torment of absence
Like frostbite on my face

Orgasm
#########
Let me be,
Surrounded by you
Clothed in you
Covered, all over

As every pore of you awakens
As your soul screams
In a hunger, so profound
In lust, insatiable ruthless lust

As i see you mad
Lost in the frenzy
Seeing the lights sparkle
With open eyes

When I meet you there
Reach out
As you hold my face
Let me hear you, in glee, like a child

If I should be lost
And you could never find me
I shall be where you are
Be as you

While you make my earl grey
And wait at my chair
Pour a little over at the window
To make it seem I drank

And when you see my wallet
Yell at me, pretend am standing behind you
Like I always do
And then say , I won't ever keep it in place

Call my number once a day
And then message me how you miss me
And then pick up my phone
And reply, I will see you in the evening

When you go to the sea side
Buy 2 of those ice lollies
Eat them both, with those wide childish eyes
And tease me that I can't have any

If the guys come calling over beer
Pour my glass
Let it sit there, as the conversation goes on
And always pay that tab

For you are me
If so, then how could 'I' be
If I could never be
How could I ever be gone

The scream in my head
A million decibels
Ripping the eardrums of my mind to shreds
Making them bleed
And to say
All this I endure
Is fun at most
But yet grave
Nothing to crave
Nothing to hate
Lost into oblivion
Found in a hay stack
A contrast as wicked
Yet fair
Only to breathe
Till death comes visiting

In the silence
Where i am me, but I know you
Where you are faded, yet i see
Those moments torment
If to express these words
Should mean to offend
Should I or should i not
Are often my battles
Many a battles that i have won
Mean a few i have lost
Those losses have caused grief at large
At the very onset of my expressed thoughts
If one more word fro me
Should offend
Me, you or us
Let this silence swallow my soul
Knead me into nothingness

When winter fell
And covered my palm in snow
I felt one with that lack of warmth
For it felt as dead as my heart

When the stream froze
Trapping in it, the fish and fern
As it tore the souls away
It felt like home, where my heart resides

When the windows frosted over
And shattered the glass
Yet held it together
I could relate to the ominous feeling

The wind , cold and bone chilling as it blows
Feels like my breath
The sigh i release
Thinking of memories long gone

She looked into the gentle drift
As if to wish if it could stand still
To know why it still showed her
Even when, it just floated past
In her gentle hum
In absolute
Of all that she has seen
Yet so much she wants to know
I could reach out
And yet stand by
Look at her as she stared into the gentle flow
As she remained, in such a painting
In terms of feeling
Is it true
Or is it just a scene
Or is it a call , of wanton cravings
Neither shall i know
Nor shall i ponder
Those are what burn a soul
A life , seeks to not burn

One must
If should one
Yet if
And if one
Believe in
In such
For the variables are
Yet are not
Can such be
Argued upon
Yet
Yet again
Prose meets poetry
Yet a verse undefined
And if to be
Shall it, can it
It may not, yet may
Such are musings
And the wanderlust
Of literature
Yet a journey
Most may not agree upon

When the air that fans my soul
Shall stop its swirl
And am seized by the destiny of all life
I shall not fight
For to fight is to deny
My very belonging ,
Of the dust and the ashes
That bound me, to life and as
When I shall still the eyes
Do not mourn my pass
I shall not be away
I shall be
Forever as I have been
In the very essence of all around.

On the landmine
As you place
Your gentle steps
Fear not, to lose today
As the earth turns red
Let our blood turn it red
If you shall face an enemy
See me in him
You have defeated me
You could destroy him
I am your forge
Fail me not
For i would burn
So you can blaze

Wanting
=====================

When words are mere
And darkness is still
When dreams are turbid
And the soul meek
Yet if the body longs to prevail
Is that deemed living

Yet some do
And others choose to ignore
Some feel
Some cannot
A paradox of such latter
I live as

Fear, for all one feels is transitory
Ascension, another faux
Since we all are fixed
Beneath the skies
In insolence of craving

A pity all must end
Yet a want to not
Some are,
Yet under false pretences
Smiling even
Wanting is such a crime

Walk
With swift footing
Like the life you live is a fire of passion
Yet never run
Revisit all the places you have been
Smile
Like today is a fun place to be
Laugh
A bit more than a mad man
Over all that embarrassed you
Scream
With the strength of your breath
Say all you want
All that you have trapped in your inhibitions
Love
Like love is something you define
Let the heart run wild
For this one life is all we have

When your mind wanders into the loon
Share with me no songs of those
For my world is a place, a vastness of insane
You have only touched the surface
Happiness; should one wish to find
Can only be in sheer madness
For in complete idiocy can one be at peace
All else is a binding
I was estranged, if I should be sane
Yet what sanity is defined as by most is inane
I can laugh at what has been, is
Yet never on what could be, for i predict nor ponder
Here is me
In the stillest of my mind
Yet all I project is chaos
Pity others I do, for order is always in chaos

The world is in turmoil
Yet you recline
The waves that drown the world
Arrive as calm water to your feet
The sound of of warrior's call
Sounds to you like your hymn
Yet in all such ad hoc
You seem to smile endlessly
You are a con
Yet you are
One who twists the world
Why should I call you the gentle
When all you seem to do is let things be
Said the novice hermit

Why should I worry
For I cannot change
What is to be, shall
And what shall, has already been ready to
You seek me for the wrong reasons
I am not to solve the defined
I recline, to show you to
For when I let it be
It has to be
You shall soon find me
When you do not want to
For your want of me as of now is a want
Said Narayana to the Novice

Everyone will write
Small scraps of poetry
Of kids that died
In some common everyday massacre
Common yes, acceptable No
Yet they will never teach
Their own kids of sharing
Nor shall they teach
That religion only causes death
For it is human
To compare and fight
Between different opinion

You grow on me
Spreading your tendrils, wrap me in your self
Yet you seek to change what I am
Am I , am I all that you want me to be
I am not, yet I won't try to be either
But you keep at it, like a wave cutting a cliff
The cliff may erode, and then, you wont have that company
Such is your wanton desire
To change me, into your perception
But I will fight
Fight till my last breath evades me
For if I change, you wouldn't love me
Such is your misunderstood irony
If I was anything or anyone else
What would you be, you would be you
Without me, you would be a runner on another tree
But if It wasn't me, wouldn't you miss me
I would, for we exist in such a ruse
Of fighting, yet being one
Yet today, i choose to discard
All you are, for you are not what I wish to fight
I have my own battles
They will be mine, your absence would leave it's mark
Yet, I would care less
For to love, I did
But to fall out of love you helped me
Such, isn't that what should fuel
My death wish filled dark poetry

In some lost wanderings
Where you were the only thought
Seem like a haunt, now
Better lost, even forgotten
Yet you shine through
Like a million suns
Scorching my soul that reeks of hatred for you
Love conquers all
Is just a passe
For my hatred towards you shines brighter
I cherish the coldness of that feeling
And have nothing but discord to give you
For all your trespasses
I have forgiven none, nor forgotten
I abhor the presence of you
As I see you in all I look
Such is the ploy
Of the saddest joke
And yet, I laugh, like a madman
Homeless, for I am not in your so called heaven
Happy, for it caused nothing but longing
When you chose to melt
The hearth itself
Little could I do
But disown
Powerless, yet shackled in you
Wishing death, yet you stand guard

Persistence
--------------------------------------------
The river rages, like a beast
Yet, it does not cease to be a river
It may freeze
It may still
Yet these are just moments for it
The water shall flow
Regardless
If the stillness allures you, remember it's storm
If the storm scares, remember it's calm
Yet, it shall be, all it is
Nothing but a river
You cannot hold it, yet it is there
In you wake
In your dreams
In you darkest moments
In you brightest joys
Just so
It is
It will be, yet most wish to measure
For a river seeks none
All it is , is
All it will be, will
You may pass, but it remains
Like you knew
But , never the same.

Your eyelids close
they trap the moment as you are with me
And open as you look into mine
And i stare back
As you turn away
I want to see you look back
To want me
In the same as I want you
If your lips speak
Let them be to mine
And let me feel those words
Cover mine as i reply
Let not voice be the way
Let it be your touch
Let my heart feel the words
For my ears are open to all

In your self as you see
Do you see what you can be
Only the sunset should touch
Those resting legs on the beach
It may not be wise
To stir such a conversation
But should that mean
I leave, stating a lie
If to hold you close
For a moment , Brief,
Yet to know
You and me
Are just the same side of a coin
One in the shade
One in the light
Yet, let my darkness be
As stilled as it is

If to hold your head and look into your eyes
Yet to know, you are you, and I am me
And that the universe is vast, endless
And all that mattered then is this time
Would you still pay heed
To all that makes you a slave
Or shall you let it be and smile
From a soul to another, existing in different planes

aloft
----------------------------------------------------
I seek diffusion in clouds of smoke
in my cigarettes that eat my time of living
and then I look forth into the grey skies
drunk and staring into the distance
I wish to fade like the smoke does , each time I hold her to my lips
and when I feel her enter my lungs I can feel the pain subside
every five minutes that I lose, the lesser I have to leave
knowing you are away, knowing I am alone
Amongst the million, I seek
solace in the pseudo world create
just to fade into oblivion
as most of my wishes and dreams

K.K's Poem

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she fell , while she did she saw the stars
spinning like the dome of a planetarium
all that was her life flashed before her eyes
and then it was gone

her breath gone, her voice silenced
just a motionless corpse, stilled
The ground beneath her glistened red
and marked her , there she lay
still, and yet gone away
When i last caught her gaze she just stared
and the brass ejected into the air
and a noise later there was silence
all that remained is her corpse and my loneliness
You never love your target
you execute them, there was a whisper




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KK is a character from my book, who is a killer.

Fore-go

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Tread amongst the rustling leaves
hear her walking amongst
a youth, nothing to care about
I just wonder at her passing
like the gentle touch of bombax
floating in the summer breeze
like the boats that the children float
beside the pond, in the stream
if to confront her , I ask myself
and if not then she will never know
but if she knew what this heart felt
would she cast a gentle glance
such a risk is too great to take
and since it may be a mistake
To forego her just passing, every now and then
I stand there at my porch to catch a glimpse

I live on

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i could have been dead once
into oblivion, lost to decay
No hand would have stretched out
none could warm this soul

Yet I survived, a curse, to live
witness the world
watch it turn the knife in my soul
gentle, hurting me yet keeping me alive
such is an existence, one i could abhor
Even death mocks me
if i should ever rise
i have my own ones to being me to my knees
to cry, the tears are gone
to bleed , there is nothing left in the heart
to escape, there is no hope in my soul
to win, god didn't write me that fate
i await, in my prison
just to writhe in pain, whimper in the night
beg for an end
yet i live on

You and I

--------------------------------------------

Solitude has perseverance
And it is catches up quick,
I look, I run but I can only do so much
‘You’ I and the ‘I’ you that left me behind
Which side is the winning line?
Which side is to lose?
Where will I stand if I have to choose?
Shall I dance to my loss for the ones I love have won?
Shall I cry to realize that they wouldn’t care less?
Your dogma, your perception
Your ramblings and musings
Your minds, a cage with a dying bird
My mind a dead cavern, without even that
And when our worlds collide
I shall gently bow down and let you pass first
For all I need to know is you are safe
And all I care is if you can smile

Calling to life

----------------------------------------------------------------

A while has passed, since you passed my way
and the moment seems so strong , the mind holds on
Casting nothing buy a glow of loneliness and dismay
Hear my calling , come my way
Far too long has these days been
and seemingless silence in my ears
they just await one voice, yours, so serence, a fabric of warmth
cover me with those words again
Inside this heart , i harbour your absence
The storm of your absence , wailing in the heart, now hollow
I have known what pain could be, I have been dead for long
you brought me back to life, life hurts again
Confer to me a wish to feel your gentle touch,
Confer to me to see your gentle smile
For i have seen it once, and this greed for living yearns

Blur

----------------------------------------------------------------

I can’t understand
Why this heart longs for you
And if I have to know, it’s been beyond feelings
Scorched, dried and turned to ash it has been

And then you change it
Would you be here , just to mock my love
Have my sins been so grave that I shall be tormented forever
If so why does this heart long for this endless pain
To run away from you and to you am back again
All this while that you fade
Into the dark skies of the night
And wake me up each morning
To crave, to hear you speak, of the weather, of the land, anything
And then to fade again
This heart has called out to you
It has known pain, of losing, of missing
Did you only mend it, give it life
Only to bleed it again?
In my complete surrender
Did I commit my gravest mistake?
The mind that has been stirred
Is at unrest, awaiting a glimpse,
If only; a glimpse of you.

Let Me

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Let me fall into the sky
And be amongst the birds that fly, soar
But hold me from drifting away
When the storm cloud rises, and the lightning cracks the skies
Let me float endlessly
In the ocean so blue, where the fish swim
Be the anchor that holds me
Steady and still in the unforgiving waves
When you think of me, wave in the breeze
Your essence shall touch me
Keep me warm in your thoughts
Comfort me, when this heart misses you
If you pass me by, perchance that I be blind
Your scent shall let me know
That I am still alive, I shall smile
Knowing you are well
In discomfort, if one shall slip past my prayers
Should it visit you, send it to me
I shall welcome it, down on bended knees
And after all, if I am alone, and you lost to time
I shall look back, to the lake, to the path you walked on
Sear my soul to cast your imagery
Warm my hands, in the flame of your memories

Etched in deep meanings

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If to walk this earth alone, shall I forever be condemned
And that when I shall pass, all I walk on shall be barren
Into the glorious world that everyone who sees
My eyes are just tinted with these haunting miseries

My original sin that I loved
And that has now borne fruit, unlike those that bring joys
I speak to the empty walls of my heart
Everything about me, an antithesis
Where one finds laughter, I find hurt
The soul now an empty aura of nothingness
And I am bound to like in this existence
When I raise my arms to the skies
Even the wind refuses to touch my palms
And the soil beneath, fails to take me in her arms
The spring bears no bloom in my garden
The brook where I once waited, now dried
The birds seem to never visit, not a robin, not a crow in sight
Nothing has been the same, nothing has changed past that
The moment you left, the last glimpse of you I caught
The will to smile followed you, as you wandered off
In a chance meeting, if you see it, just send it to me
Just point towards my direction
I will know, for the wind shall know that you thought of me
And it shall touch me, passing by. 
 If to walk this earth alone,
shall I forever be condemned
And that when I shall pass, all I walk on shall be barren
Into the glorious world that everyone who sees
My eyes are just tinted with these haunting miseries
My original sin that I loved
And that has now borne fruit, unlike those that bring joys
I speak to the empty walls of my heart
Everything about me, an antithesis
Where one finds laughter, I find hurt
The soul now an empty aura of nothingness
And I am bound to like in this existence
When I raise my arms to the skies
Even the wind refuses to touch my palms
And the soil beneath, fails to take me in her arms
The spring bears no bloom in my garden
The brook where I once waited, now dried
The birds seem to never visit, not a robin, not a crow in sight
Nothing has been the same, nothing has changed past that
The moment you left, the last glimpse of you I caught
The will to smile followed you, as you wandered off
In a chance meeting, if you see it, just send it to me
Just point towards my direction
I will know, for the wind shall know that you thought of me
And it shall touch me, passing by.

Last
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Sing to me in simple tunes
Of what homer wrote,
gazing on this world Of the essence that shall prevail
Of a returning, the battle beings of Troy

Of the clanging axes,
and the shimmer of red
When the skyward facing warrior lay on his back Fallen from living
A sword close to his heart, stabbed through

When the vile banshee wail
To tell us how death shall prevail
Does the harp still hum
A song of the grandeur of a life to live

Will it not be a solemn waste
To smile amidst such a faux pas
Of how centuries of bleed , greed and the obsession to rule
In place of gentle love , has come to last.

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You will always be
Just the same , in my memories, forever to see
Hear, feel and live
Though you no longer exist in actuality

Yet as a diamond,
Forever sparkling, ever so clear
A distant memory
A distant dream faded
My facts, yours
In reality, twisted, melt, in the hearth
Molten, in my mind
Melded to my soul
A sore, this existence
Lives on endlessly, living, no end in sight
Each night , a fight
To escape, this life

why I click pictures

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On a broken road
Blades of grass rise between the grass
A drizzle passed, the pearls of rain on those blades
Sparkle in the morning light
This is a road less traveled
And like Frost, I took this one
in a time of incurable loneliness
To find my way, to find the likes of me
I stopped by some, observantly
Looked at them through my viewfinder
A gentle twist of the dial, a slight roll of the barrel
Captured a few glimpses
Back home, I looked at them
Wondered what it all meant
Forgot my loneliness, for the heart felt a joy
Realized the importance of these little joys
A hobby, one should have
One that a man shall follow
When the clouds grow dark, and hopes are lost
For the hobby keeps his heart aglow.

emergence

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Wavy wispy suds
Washed ashore in a gentle tone
Touch your feet and tickle your soles
Set u giggling like a child
In the horizon the setting red
A giant candy of orange
Gently sets the water ablaze
Paints the skies in vivid shades
Your hands are so tender and warm
In my hands now dry and cold
A smile still appears on my face
You bring a change to this flesh alive
Make me run on the sands like a mad man
Bring forth the joys that I log thought lost
You close in the now risen moon
There we stand silhouettes against the sparkling moonlit sea

Needles in my eyes
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The plight of the encompass, so rancid, so putrid
Living yet with lifeless eyes
When the cut bleeds, the red is just fake
In the hearts that have lost the faith
One that never could have existed
For an existence shall never seem a void
Like engraved stones, sparkling diamonds
Some tears, Crocodillian
Un-still calmness, false commits
In between a new born's heart bleeds
In stark contrast, un cajoled
Could never be, for its lost its role
Of being a joy, she a girl child
Wails, in a pile of garbage
Fruit of a sacred vow, so called in all its faux terms
She should be dead, yet continues to live

And It too shall Pass
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Many a thought, has often passed
And all in disarray, random yet deep
Of the light and the dark
Some to churn the blood into a raging river

The warmth, that the soul possess
Has faded away so many times
Now the shell of a shackled heart
Unheard, unattended unseen isolated

Knows it no way of the wayward moment
The time just passes by
Without to ever stop over and look my way
And I lay since till dusk to dawn, each day

If the conflict shall never end
Of, Between the soul and heart
I shall never find peace
And death too shall come to pass

Serengeti

Serengeti 
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The sunset
Amongst the grass
Where the orange hues mix with the red
Let me watch you run
In a herd , yet in calm
As the dusty ground calls a mind
To melt into the evening sun
Let me sit and watch my muse