recollections

I walked past the abandoned villa

At some point it glowed in the evenings

Through its windows

The walls now bear countless names

Of lovers who often meet there, in secret

Away from prying eyes

For the world hates lovers

As I walked past 

I heard a voice call out my name

Turning around , I saw the caller

A beautiful frail woman in her forties

Raju, is that you? She asked

It was I , as I replied

She rushed through the gate, on towards an embrace

And I stood there, confused

Did I know her? I thought embarrassed

Is this someone I forgot along

She whispered , asked me to walk into the villa

We sat there at its foot steps

The place was familiar, yet not her.

As we sat she sand an old song

Familiar, so I sang along

And as we sand, I recollected

I had written it, as a teen

As we laughed and sat at the steps

The sun was ready to fade and go

She said, let us scribble our names

And I wrote smilingly

Me and My forgotten song

At which I walked through the gate

Bid goodbye to the villa

I had found my old song

And my smile, and it was all worth this one trip.

Life is such

Trips and memories

Recalled, forgotten, over and again

To learn (I)

Part 1

Let me feel the longing for you

As a lover, let my insides churn

And you be the ever evading, denying, evil woman

For I want to feel what it is to have loved and lost

Will you in one manifestation be so

Is this woman's wish Hari

Let me feel the joy

Of seeing you , yet be away

Be tormented and cast aside

Ever and again

Let me fold into my own body

Weep countless nights

I would want to be born a man

A man in love, overcome by madness 

Failed in my logic, shunning my truth

Let me at such be subjected to your coldness

Yearn in wanting to hear you

At which you would blatantly deny my pleas

I would want to feel

All that has been felt

By every gender that you have made

Let me feel complete

Let me feel your Maya of creation

bush fires

Run steed

Like the wind

Let the fire burning your mane burn the souls

Of what we have done

How we have tortured and tormented the world

But your run at best is futile

The human race has gone vile

Wretched and twisted

Lost and distraught

Greed and malice

Jealousy and depravity have sprung forth

You shall just burn and die

Those who caused the fire won't care

Some like me will cry for a moment

And then return to our indifference

Run steed

Die, just die

Take all your brethren with you

fade away sun.

It is morning

Some may even say a time to be awake

For some it is , for some like me

It is a hindrance

I long for the moonlit nights

For the moon has my unfaltering attention

And should it not?

The moon has lead many to lunacy

In those gentle waves by the sea

The sun may at best seem like a receding moron

Spreading light and casting shadows

Carving greys into the the black and white

It is not for me

Come forth night

I am at comfort

For the soul can be at home

In its element

Of dark allure

Alone but never lonely