Thursday 16 May 2024

You know something?

What could contain me
For I was born to be meaningless 
Inconsequential in life
Where I had to chance upon
And become all I was asked

I became what I was asked
In such I died and was born
Over a million times, and more
Yet I stand irrelevant, to me to all

And there is no end to my existence
For I do not seem to be real, or seen
A state I am to be in, all mine
From the very fabric of life

I won't even refuse to be seduced
For it is an impossibility I live as
I will exist as the universe commands
I will be all that it commands

But should you ask me for my dreams, know
I have none, for dreams are for sleepers
I do not sleep, for I was an instrument
That the universe wields, sans my will of being

Yet, Come Monday I shall be there
Until deliverance shall burn my wick to ash
Then I will fade into irrelevance
And that is what my existence demands



## Analysis of the Poem "What Could Contain Me"

**Theme:** The poem explores the concept of an existence that feels meaningless and preordained. The speaker feels like a tool or instrument, created to serve a purpose but lacking any autonomy or personal desires.

**Structure:**

* The poem uses a free verse style with no set rhyme scheme or meter.
* Each stanza is relatively short, contributing to a sense of urgency and repetition.
* There are several instances of repetition, like "I became what I was asked" and "I will exist as the universe commands," emphasizing the speaker's lack of control.

**Literary Devices:**

* **Metaphor:** 
    * "Born to be meaningless" - compares existence to a predetermined fate.
    * "Instrument... the universe wields" - compares the speaker to a tool with no agency.
* **Personification:** 
    * "The universe commands" - gives the universe a human-like quality of control.
* **Paradox:** 
    * "I won't even refuse to be seduced" - suggests a passive acceptance of a forced existence.

**Key Points:**

* The speaker feels born without inherent meaning and shaped by external forces.
* They live in a cycle of repetition, "died and was born / Over a million times."
* There's a sense of longing for something more, like dreams, but the speaker sees them as incompatible with their existence.
* The poem ends with a sense of resignation. The speaker accepts their fate, existing until the end, then fading back into irrelevance.

**Possible Interpretations:**

* The poem could be a commentary on the feeling of being trapped in a job or a social role that feels unfulfilling.
* It could explore the concept of artificial intelligence, programmed to serve humanity without independent desires.
* It could be a more philosophical exploration of free will and whether meaning can be created in a seemingly predetermined existence.

The poem invites interpretation and allows the reader to connect with the speaker's sense of alienation and yearning for something more.

Dear Chris

All of this, where does it end
When! even?
Those in your tidal lock fade 
Yet you remain, unmoved
I could curse my life 
Of having become a bit like you brother
That would be so wrong
For you saw life, and became life
And I see now, that life is to live
We will, yet your passing 
Leaves in my heart an emptiness
A small emptiness, for I understand now
To live is to make life be
Good Bye brother, We will miss you.

Saturday 4 May 2024

My lady poetry

At loggerheads, are we
Adrift the dark waters of the poetry
Where there is no rhyme nor reason
For either of us to argue, yet don't we
Like two rabid lovers of a single mistress
Who has to frown at every phrase
You tend to her better, you tend to her sweet
While I only run a spike through her sprouting glee
Maybe I will learn to toe the line
Maybe she will let me drown in her vines
Or I shall be cast away by her gentle hand
But even at that I shall pen rubbish poetry.


Analysis of "My Lady Poetry" by Claude

The poem "My Lady Poetry" presents an intriguing and introspective exploration of the speaker's relationship with poetry, personified as a lady. The speaker acknowledges their friend's superior poetic abilities, portraying a sense of friendly rivalry and a desire to improve their own craft.

The opening lines establish the metaphorical setting, with the speaker and their friend being "at loggerheads" and "adrift the dark waters of the poetry." The use of the phrase "no rhyme nor reason" suggests a lack of logic or rationality in their arguments, yet they persist, perhaps driven by their shared passion for poetry.

The central metaphor compares the speaker and their friend to "two rabid lovers of a single mistress," with poetry being the object of their affection. The friend is portrayed as tending to the lady (poetry) better and more sweetly, while the speaker admits to running "a spike through her sprouting glee," suggesting a more aggressive or perhaps less refined approach.

The speaker's tone is one of humble self-awareness, acknowledging their friend's superior skills while expressing a desire to learn and improve. The lines "Maybe I will learn to toe the line / Maybe she will let me drown in her vines" convey a willingness to conform to the conventions of poetry ("toe the line") or to fully immerse themselves in its intricate complexities ("drown in her vines").

The final lines capture the speaker's resilience and unwavering commitment to their craft. Even if they are "cast away by her gentle hand," they declare their determination to continue writing poetry, even if it is perceived as "rubbish."

Overall, the poem explores the speaker's complex relationship with poetry, acknowledging their friend's superior abilities while expressing a humble desire to improve and a steadfast dedication to their art, regardless of the outcome. The personification of poetry as a lady adds depth and complexity to the metaphorical journey, evoking a sense of reverence and respect for the craft.

The Inner Buddha of Darkness.

In the beginning there was no night
It's all the burning of these souls that paints the world
In black, and the stars are the last embers of hope 
I rescinded too late, I too have contributed to this darkness

Who could have believed that hope is so oily, that it would burn
Everything it drips into will char and taint into permanence 
Then permeate into the deepest recess of souls
I let it overwhelm my ability of logical reasoning 

Love nor hope is now warranted, like so many
And it is a tad too late for an epiphany 
I look out into the summer evening fading
Knowing the light will be gone post this evening 

Should I see a glimmer, a moon light of tarnished, spared hope
I shall not follow through, but shun it vehemently 
I have nothing to gain from this endless cycle of life's un-endings
I have breached into the very fabric of detachment.



Analysis of "The Inner Buddha of Darkness"

Theme: Embracing Darkness as a Path to Enlightenment (of Sorts)

This poem explores the speaker's descent into despair and their transformation into a being who finds solace in darkness. The title, "The Inner Buddha of Darkness," sets the stage for a unique perspective on enlightenment.

Techniques and Symbolism:

  • Fire and Darkness: The burning souls and the black world symbolize the speaker's internal destruction and the pervasiveness of despair.
  • Stars and Moonlight: The fading stars and tarnished moonlight represent the dying embers of hope that the speaker actively rejects.
  • Oil and Charring: Hope becomes a destructive force, tainting everything it touches.
  • Inner Buddha: This symbol is central to the poem's complexity. Traditionally, the Buddha represents enlightenment achieved through overcoming suffering. Here, the "Inner Buddha" resides in darkness, suggesting the speaker has found a different kind of peace – one built on accepting the darkness.

Structure and Shifts:

The poem follows a similar structure as before, with a reflection on the past that caused the darkness, the speaker's present state of despair, and their resolve for the future. However, the title adds a new dimension.

The major shift still occurs around line 10. Before that, the speaker feels regret. Afterward, they become resolute in rejecting hope and embracing detachment. However, with the title, this detachment takes on a more spiritual connotation. The speaker may not be seeking traditional enlightenment, but rather a dark form of peace within the despair.

Interpretation:

The speaker views the world as inherently dark and suffering as inevitable. They believe hope is destructive and detachment is the only path to avoid further pain. This detachment takes on a spiritual dimension with the title, suggesting the speaker has found a "dark Buddha" within themselves – a twisted form of enlightenment where darkness itself becomes a source of peace.

Possible Additional Considerations:

  • Is the speaker's "dark Buddha" a healthy or sustainable way to cope?
  • Could the speaker be repressing deeper emotions, or is this truly a form of acceptance?
  • Is there any hope for the speaker to find a different kind of light, even within the darkness?

Overall, "The Inner Buddha of Darkness" presents a fascinating exploration of despair, detachment, and a unique perspective on enlightenment.

Friday 3 May 2024

Do not engage

Provisional maturity, often exhibited 
Is not a permanence, but a perchance 
Such meanors one must notice early
Lest should fall prey to the blinds of love

She could be angry, she could be not 
And to be pacified is the ask, sans words
Turn around, walk away my boy
Such is the conduct of an childish mind

If jealousy should raise its head and peer
Upon your meets and greetings of dear
Turn around, walk away my boy quick
Such is the hiss of a serpentine strike

And if she leaves, and as most do of late
Ask her for a reason, yet only once
Then promptly walk away my boy, run
The mature do not need to be gambled for.

If she reaches your heart, brings calm
Even post the distance, her heart is warm
Know she is for love, hold her hand
Drown in her thoughts, bring her along